Twenty-Four Hours

Right Now. November 10th

I don’t think I have ever been so confused about my future, yet so contempt with it’s uncertainty. I miss every day that passes while anticipating with eagerness for the next one to begin. Living is such an adventure and I don’t know why it took so long for me to figure it out. I think it took a lot of wrong turns to end up so happy in such an unknown state. There is nothing wrong right now. There is nothing but this overwhelming joy in my heart knowing that I have everything I need with me at this moment. 

Perhaps it’s all because of days like today with no rhyme or reason, just unfathomable bliss. Days that are started with cuddles and fresh cookies and a warm cup of coffee. Days that don’t hold anything special in them, the ones that just exist and pass, but remind you that not every day has to be productive to be a good one. Days that remind you that you are loved irregardless of who you were yesterday. Days that give you an excuse to do nothing but spend time on yourself and the people around you.

These twenty four hours have been pivotal. I made memories and reminisced on old ones. I laughed and I smiled and I enjoyed being in the town that made me who I am. I looked back at relationships that ended and felt at peace with the ones that are beginning. I felt something other than emptiness for the first time in a long time.

So here’s to today and tomorrow and the days that follow. I have no clue what’s going on but for now I’m alright with that.